22 mai 2007
Have you ever...Open a window, log in to Blogger with plenty of things to blog, yet when the page finally loads, you know not what to blog about anymore?
Stoned momentarily in front of my computer, not knowing what to type. It's as if all my thoughts suddenly vanished and my brain cleansed of all thoughts.
Nonetheless, I think a random post would be better than no post.
Today's been a relatively relaxed day at work I should say. Only three more days to the much anticipated June holidays and a week plus more to my trip. The teachers left school early today to head down to Orchard Cineleisure for our Professional Development. Today's one was more unique, because we get to watch a movie instead. We watched Blades of Glory, which was basically a funny movie with cliche plot but comical scenes. Overall, it was a refreshing change as compared to the usual trainings they line up for us teachers. After the movie, Yiru and me went to walk around Orchard for a while. Spent quite a long while in Kinokuniya, thinking if I should buy more books to read, though I decided against it in the end. I have this pretty bad habit of buying books, reading them once or twice only, then store it somewhere inside my cabinets and forgetting all about them until ages later. Not a very good habit I would say... and also, since I just borrowed two new books from the library, so I guess I should save up for the moment. =)
Anyway, after that, we headed off in different directions. As I was standing in the train, some random thoughts just flashed across my mind. I was thinking... why do people/ women (including me!) go on diets all the time. One reason would be the pursuit of perfection. Somehow, it seems like people's perception of perfect would be somewhat unattainable on oneself, but attainable on another. Hence, the person would do whatever it takes, just to attain the so-called "perfection". Then, there's always competition I suppose. When we see how people manage to look good so effortlessly, we somehow would end up wishing we were like that, and aspiring to be like that. Perhaps that's vanity.
Maybe that doesn't apply to all, but at least to me I guess. Much as I do not want to admit it, but it sure doesn't feel good when you see people looking like a million bucks and you yourself looking like a miserable dollar. And of course, it feels lousy when you see how much others eat and yet look like a stick, when you yourself put on weight even by just breathing air. Anyway, that's not the main point. The main point I guess is... everything boils down to confidence ultimately. If one is confident, nothing others say will affect the person, and no matter how he/she looks, he/she will still feel good. So, I guess like many other people... I must still learn to build up confidence. *chants to myself* Confidence, confidence, confidence! So, when I finally reached my stop, I did something to boost my confidence. I bought a cup of super fattening bubble tea to drink! Haha, that's really lame I know... not exactly in a coherent state of mind now, haha.
Anyhow, pray the next 3 days fly!
8:11 PM。。。書いていました。
