17 mars 2007
Making choicesI have come to realised some time back that many a times, we do not get to make decisions or choices, even when it is our lives. We can't decide our names, we can't decide our looks, we can't decide who our parents are, we can't decide who we shall meet and not meet. Many things in life seemed to have been decided for us, even before we had the chance to decide for ourselves.
There are too many limitations in life, that even before we decide, choices have already been forcefully made and reinforced on us. Hence, I guess I am just glad when I get to make my own decisions and choices. My choice might not have been the best one, or the outcome could have been horribly bad. Yet, I am just happy enough to be given a chance to decide for myself, and even when it turns out to be a bad decision, at least I am proud to say I had a choice, and if I get to choose again, I would still opt it this way. The exterior casing is just a facade. If no one sees the true content within, what good would the object be?
Anyway, it's already Friday of the March holidays. It hasn't seemed like a holiday since I am still in school everyday, but at least I am thankful for being able to wake up slightly later the past few days. Met up with an old friend after work today. Caught a movie, 300. Spartans vs Persians. Freedom vs slavery. It was a pretty inspiring movie, and the choreography was excellent. The washed out effects, the use of black and white, the movie was great on the whole, lest for some overly violent scenes. After the movie, we simply hang around Ang Mo Kio, reminiscing the Ang Mo Kio we knew and frequent back then, and the new Ang Mo Kio it is today. So many things have changed, so many buildings and shops have retreated to the back of our memories. So many things have ceased to exist in reality, so many people we knew of no longer exist in our circle of trust. We simply walked up and down till we were tired, and ended up in the new Macdonalds in Ang Mo Kio Park. Had a long nice chat there, updating each other with bits and pieces of our lives. Shared stories and anecdotes of common friends, I whined about my job, ranted about my unhappiness towards certain events and he simply listened. It was therapeutic, having a good listening ear, having a good friend to pour your woes to. It felt like the good old times, when we were still studying, when everything was simple and carefree.
Then I guess we got kind of crazy and decided to head down to East Coast Park just because we hadn't been there for ages. It was a little crazy but super fun doing impromptu stuff, following our hearts. We strolled around ECP for a couple of hours, chatting, crapping and doing lame stuff, like making fun of the people we saw, cracking dumb jokes and gossiping about our friends. Stayed till like we were all deadbeat and decided to head home. And being the very obedient citizens we are, or rather the overly-enthusiastic citizens, we actually drove ourselves to a police road block and got checked before heading home. Haha. All in all, it was really nice to just chill the Friday away and enjoy the night.
After meeting up with my friend, suddenly had this thought... there are some people in life who simply pass by, leaves some memories and leave again, while there are those who will always be lingering around, creating happier memories to cover the sad ones.
Guess this super long entry should suffice for the lack of entries recently. Time to finally head off for bed, and to hopefully wake up for a better day.
3:53 AM。。。書いていました。
