My Rainbow Heaven

27 février 2007

On hiatus

Till it feels right to blog again...

原来，世界有许多东西是我们无法掌控的。

计划永远都赶不上变化。

9:33 PM。。。書いていました。

26 février 2007

Tired

I am tired of everything.

I am so tired, I don't know what I am doing.

I don't know why I scowl when I want to smile, I don't know why I smile when I want to cry, I don't know why I do this when I am suppose to do that.

Life's a mess.

I am just too tired for now.

Give me a break. Help me find the happy me again.

I don't want to be unhappy.

8:25 PM。。。書いていました。

Saying my final goodbye

I baded my final farewell to something/someone today. Something/someone that will belong to the chest of memories and slowly be forgotten with the passing of time.

Saying goodbye isn't easy, I realised, but yet when you finally said your last goodbye, you get a sense of peace and enlightenment.

12:45 AM。。。書いていました。

23 février 2007

Comfort food

What more need I say?

8:53 PM。。。書いていました。

21 février 2007

Erratic mood

The mood feels extremely erratic today. Like a pendulum onboard a sampan trying to navigate on choppy waters.

Am feeling pretty snappy at this moment, coupled with a tingle of autism and anti-socialness. Maybe it's the weather, maybe it's the people or maybe it's just post CNY symptoms.

I need to recoup my lack of sleep.

Hope I sleep my way to a better tomorrow.

9:27 PM。。。書いていました。

Random stuff

Still stuck in office, going through piles of work, yet feeling kind of restless to really setttle down and finish all my markings. Guess the festive season is still too strong to make me get into the proper work mode. Feeling a little lazy at times, wanting to just relax and enjoy the remaining days of Chinese New Year before it's gone.

Lessons today were okay, things seemed okay. Half day for tomorrow, thanks to the 2006 batch for having done well for their O levels. Seemed like yesterday when I went back to my alma mata to collect my O level results, then embarked on my JC journey and then proceeded to University... but sad to say, it's so many years ago. Sometimes, I miss school life. The days when life was so carefree, when all our responsibilities was to just study and do well enough to get promoted. Days when we were given allowances, when we could "bargain" for more allowances when there wasn't enough for us to spend.

Sigh, I am just feeling very random now.

6:37 PM。。。書いていました。

20 février 2007

Back to normal

After 4 days of fun and slacking, it's time to go back to normal.

No more mahjong/blackjack sessions (except weekends, haha).

CNY this year was fun on the whole.

10:44 PM。。。書いていました。

17 février 2007

Year of the PIG

Just a couple more hours, and it's going to be MY YEAR! Haha. Finally it's the year of the PIG again, which also means that I am older yet again. -_-

Anyway, I just hope this coming new lunar year will be a better one for me, I can win more money during the "gambling sessions" with my friends and family (NOTE: I do not advocate gambling), I will lose the extra pounds, I will be happy and cheerful and lastly for my loved ones to be blessed with good health.

Hereby also wishing whoever's reading my blog, Happy Chinese New Year!

6:22 PM。。。書いていました。

16 février 2007

2-1 Learning Journey 2007

Late picture entry on the Learning Journey I went with my form class on Valentine's Day.

Lovely find in Labrador Park

Bukit Chandu

Interiors of Bukit Chandu

Exploring/wrecking Bukit Chandu

Photo taking session while waiting

The solemn and extremely hot Kranji Memorial Park

Random pictures of the boys taken through the journey

Informal "class" photo

I can't help but brag about it, my form class is so CUTE! Hahaha. Okay, perhaps not all, but some/most of them. I like how they are so unassuming, so unpretentious, and how hearty an appetite they have, haha. Even though sometimes they really make me feel like crying, when they make me feel kind of pissed off, or when they make me have headaches, but overall I still think they are very nice boys. Sometimes, I think had I been given another class to co-form, perhaps I might not have liked it so much. Probably it's also because I have seen these boys since I first stepped into the school, and somehow we sort of bonded due to a series of events that happened. Nonetheless, I hope they will continue to be the "angels" they are so far, and that they will always bring a smile to my face.

5:06 PM。。。書いていました。

14 février 2007

Valentine's Day

Valentine's Day was just like any other day... nothing special in particular, no celebrations or anything.

Headed down for the Battlefield tour for the school's Learning Journey. Accompanied my form class for the excursion, and it was pretty fun. Snapped lots of pictures of them, which I shall sort and post perhaps tomorrow.

After the learning journey, it was back to school for more work and preparations for Chinese New Year celebrations. On the way back, recieved a surprise call from the bestie. Met up for a short while, chit chatting at the MRT station whilst lamenting at our poor fates, hahaha. Grocery shopped a little, then we headed home. I am going to miss my bestie when she goes off for the entire week! =(

No school for me tomorrow. Yay~!

10:19 PM。。。書いていました。

13 février 2007

A very tiring day

Today's been a very taxing and tiring day. Attended Carpe Diem today, then rushed out some work, had lessons and then more lessons. After that, it was meetings after meetings. Three meetings in all, how "interesting". I went without breakfast and lunch, struggled through all my lessons and meetings, then sped home at 6pm feeling all weak and tired.

Was kind of bogged down by some issues since last night, but I am glad the matter's somehow solved. Guess having the positive mindset does help. I was pretty blue yesterday and simply felt like giving up, but now I am glad I took things in my stride and worked out my problems. At least now I feel slightly less stiffled. Life's really a long long long learning journey.

Oh, and I recieved a very pretty Cinamoroll plushie as an early Friendship day present from a student. If you are reading this, thanks a lot of the present and I really appreciated the thought! =)

Learning journey tomorrow... I hope the weather tomorrow would be good.

7:43 PM。。。書いていました。

10 février 2007

Happy Birthday

Caught the movie Happy Birthday today in town. The entire movie was slow paced and pretty whimsical. I liked how the story developed, though it was rather simple and pretty cliche most of the time. But I didn't exactly liked the way both parties dwelled and wasted so much time, refusing to give in, until eventually the last chance was taken away from them.

"谢谢你,一直在我需要你的时候陪着我!"

I think these were the most touching words the female lead said to the male lead.

11:41 PM。。。書いていました。

诗

《江城子》

十年生死两茫茫！不思量，自难忘。
千里孤坟，无处话凄凉。
纵使相逢应不识，尘满面，发如霜。

夜来幽梦忽还乡，小轩窗，正梳妆。
相顾无言，唯有泪千行。
料得年年肠断处，明月夜，短松冈。

《千秋岁》

数声鸟阙，又报芳菲歇。
惜春更把残红折。
雨轻风色暴，梅子青时节。
永丰柳，无人尽日花飞雪。
　　
莫把么弦拨，怨极弦能说。
天不老，情难绝。
心似双丝网，中有千千结。
夜过也，东方未白凝残月。

突发奇想，忆起了这两首诗。

喜欢偶尔赏诗，但不喜欢教诗。

意境因人而异，把诗的意境美与人分享，谈何容易？

喜欢在夜深人静时赏诗，因为此时最为宁静，最容易投入诗中。委婉派诗句的柔情，仿佛绵绵的浓情蜜意。有情感澎湃时的激昂，有浓情转淡时的哀伤，有彷徨无助时的恐慌，有彻底领悟后的平静。

每一首诗，都诉说着一个故事，每一首诗，都有一段回忆。

其实，原来并不需要太多的文字，就能表达出很明确的心意。

这或许就是诗，这或许就是诗的美。

1:03 AM。。。書いていました。

08 février 2007

If only...

If only Singapore had such libraries, I would be glad to camp inside one for eternity. I can just picture myself sipping a mug of hot coffee, snuggled in my cosy sweater, enjoying a wonderful book yellowed with age.

STIFTSBIBLIOTHEK ST. GALLEN

TRINITY COLLEGE LIBRARY DUBLIN

STRAHOVSKA KNIHOVNA PRAHA

STIFTSBIBLIOTHEK KLOSTERNEUBURG

REAL GABINETE PORTUGUES DE LEITURA RIO DE JANEIRO

HANDELINGENKAMER TWEEDE KAMER DER STATEN-GENERAAL DEN HAAG

BRITISH LIBRARY LONDON

BNF PARIS

BIBLIOTECA DE LA REAL ACADEMIA DE LA LENGUA MADRID

I suddenly have this crazy urge to just go to a library, grab a novel and start reading all day long.

9:43 PM。。。書いていました。

还我隐私

人言可畏，阮玲玉曾经如此说过。

看似最毫无杀伤力的，原来最为伤人。

不喜欢别人窥视我的人生，不喜欢别人主宰我的人生，不喜欢别人扰乱我的人生。

我是我，不由得任何人决定。

只有我，决定我所要的人生。

只有我，选择我所要的人生。

我人生中的是与非，我自己决定。

我人生中的剧中人，我自己选择。

我人生中的好与坏，我自己承担。

我不干涉他人生活，他人不干涉我。世界不是很大，人却很多。拥挤的城市中，若不要纷纷扰扰，唯有安分守己。渺小的我，不需要被世界围绕，不需要万众瞩目。我要的，只是自己小小的空间，自己平凡的人生。我不希罕所谓的光芒，我不贪图所谓的“焦点”。

让我过自己所要过的生活，做我想要做的事情，享受着我平凡人生的幸福。不要把我放在显微镜下，不要将我渺小的人生放大。我不是明星，不要介入我的生活。不要散播谣言，我不喜欢不真实的流言蜚语。就让我继续拥有我的平凡，就允许我继续享受我的宁静，就让我沉浸在我的与世无争。

请不要践踏我的生活来寻求快乐。

请容许我继续行走在我的独木桥。

请不要操纵我的喜怒哀乐笑与泪。

请你还我隐私。谢谢。

8:31 PM。。。書いていました。

07 février 2007

MC

My first MC for 2007.

I don't exactly fancy falling sick, not when it gives me fainting spells, hyperactive nose and an aching throat. I was only extremely grateful for the extra two hours of sleep. At least I was able to crawl out of bed after that extra two hours of sleep. I can't imagine having to be confined in bed for the entire day. Eeks!

Went out for some breakfast amd visited the doctor in the afternoon to get some medicine for both the fever/flu and bad throat. Yes, the doctor said my throat's in a pretty bad state. He said it was very RED and SORE and he asked me what did I do. I simply said I was a teacher, and he asked no more. Haha!

And I now know that I should never say that the voice is still okay despite a sore throat. Said that and I got my retribution. Now I can barely squeak audibly. I want my voice back!!! :(

In severe need of water parades to get my voice back.

2:36 PM。。。書いていました。

04 février 2007

Sad songs

每个人心中都有一段段不堪的回忆。

每个人心中都有一首自己的主题曲。

我的心中有一首，让人很伤感的歌。

11:43 AM。。。書いていました。